Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time.~ Ecclesiastes 3:11
My 20 year high school reunion is this year. (20 years!) I'm still acquainted with some friends from high school through Facebook and recently there have been some pictures resurfacing on-line that I would rather not see. Ever! The whole tagging people in pictures on Facebook annoyed me before but now...One of my dearest friends from school actually scanned this picture into her computer then shared it with the world! (seriously?)
Yes, I had a home perm...Nice, huh?
I actually considered deleting my Facebook account temporarily until the reunion was over just so more pictures like this did not show it's ugly face. (Pun intended.)
At first, I was super humiliated. Then I realized I was being prideful. I was afraid my "new" friends, the people I look up to and maybe even wanted to impress might see me. Then I realized this is not me. This brace-faced, pimpled, New Kids On the Block fan, teenage-girl is gone. You can see it in her eyes. She is lost and lonely and without hope. Looking at this picture, I no longer see me. I see "her." She is the old me.
I'm perplexed at the space of time. How "time" can seem so far away but it seems like it just happened. Does that make any sense? I'm reflecting on the past 20 years of my life and I am able to put the years into blocks of time.
I was lost for 30 years of my life.
I defiled my body for 15 years.
I was drunk for 7 years.
I was a single mom for 5 years.
Then I met Him! A Saviour. A friend. A Father. My Redeemer! He took it all. Every dark corner, every tear and every regret. It's all gone. Washed with blood, polished by grace. I am new and time looks different.
I have been saved for 9 years.
I have been married for 7 years.
I have been of sober mind and body for 7 years.
I have 6 children.
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. ~2 Corinthians 5:17
Don't do what I did. Don't get stuck in the past and re-live your shame and regrets. They are gone and you are whole. You are complete with Jesus. Made perfect in Him alone!
You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; to be made new in the attitude of your minds; and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.~Ephesians 4:22-24